A few months back I had some bad news to share and said that more than anything I wanted to go to Disneyland. Sharla responded with "There are so many things you deserve Leah and so many things that I wish with all my heart that I could give you. When your heart breaks, mine does too but the one thing you said you wanted to do was to go to Disneyland and THAT I CAN DO!!! I may not be able to give you all the things that I dream of but I can make you laugh, tell you I love you and take you to the Land of Disney!" So the plan was on. She sold everything she could get her hands on, cashed in her Disney movie rewards and swagbucks so we had money for the trip.
She always very publicly praised me for the kind of friend I was but the truth is she was the best friend a person could ever have. We were there for each other. Every time she called I answered it (or sent a quick text that I would get back to her) and she did the same for me. Every time I called she was there. We talked at least 4 times a day...and we talked about nothing and everything. I could call her if I was cleaning a all of a sudden a job didn't seem that horrible to do.
She was my soundboard and I was hers. We had so many plans for our futures. Our friendship started in 1st grade. At Sunnyside every year there was a carnival. Sharla found a doll on the top of a trashcan and kept it. I called her a trash digger and a friendship was born. We have been through everything together. She means the world to me. So that is why my world stopped at 4:32. How can I make it through this life without her? I keep thinking that I will wake up from this horrible nightmare but I know I never will. I know when I get to heaven she will tell me how sorry she is. She never wanted to live a life without me and look what I am now expected to do.
Right now I should be in my car with Eric and Dane heading to Disneyland. I would give anything for things to be different right now. I just have to believe that you are where you are needed most but Sharla we really need you here. I love you.
“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you
must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem,
and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're
apart... I'll always be with you.”
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”
“Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would, I'd never
leave.”
“We'll be Friends Forever, won't we, Pooh?' asked Piglet.
Even longer,' Pooh
answered.”
“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”
“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I
never have to live without you.”
You never really know how long you have with someone. Over the last day I have thought of all the wonderful memories I have with Sharla. There was never a bad time. We have a classic stories where a woman threw garbage at Sharla because she was texting. I let her have it...the lady that is! You don't through trash at someone! She would eat all my candy whenever she came over...truth is I had it just for her. She spoiled me with everything that she did. My life was richer for having her in it and I will do anything and everything to keep her alive in my heart and it the lives of her children. She will never truly be gone.
6 comments:
Oh Leah, my heart just aches for you. I can't tell you how sorry I am that this tragedy has happened. She was here for such a short time but had an effect that will carry on through her friends, family and children forever. I pray that you and her family will someday heal but I know it's like the world has stopped. Im thinkng of all of you day and night and she would not want anyone to be so sad but how can you not be? Take care of yourself, and your beautiful family. It's been a true reminder that we are not here long and to make the very most of it and I think you and Sharla did just that.
So much love to you,
Alison
Leah, I cried reading this for several reasons. The first of course because I am so sad that Sharla is no longer here. Second because I am devestated for her family, including you, who loves her so much. And furthermore, I cried happy tears because the friendship you two shared was beautiful! Sharla was one of a kind!
I can't imagine how painful this is. I'm so sorry you lost your best friend, Leah. I broke down when my mom called and told me, and Sharla and I were nowhere near as close as you two were. Words fail me. Praying for everyone. :(
I'm so sorry for your loss. I have a best friend who's been the same kind of friend for me since 5th grade. It's a life-changing thing to have someone so good and important in your life. You'll be in my prayers.
Dear Leah, Thank you for sharing this sentiment with us. My heart goes out to you and Sharla's family. Like you mentioned, her warmth and generosity of spirit will live-on through her loved ones. May the Lord bless you and keep you.
Leah, I am so sorry for your loss. A true best friend is a rare thing, and it's sounds like you had a good one. You and Sharla's family are in my prayers and I hope you can find comfort in the spirit during this hard time.
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